Chiayong

2011-11-17T02:20:00.003+08:00

Thursday, 171111, 02:19
Tuesday, start of chalet! Take bus in afternoon to lakeside den take MRT,reach jurong east at ard 2:15pm. Waited for friend to come den take mrt down to Pasir Ris. Took abt one hour sia-.- and one hour standing! Nvm, so long as can reach destination can liao. But when reach alr, Jasmine say nid to take bus 89 den bus 29. And so friends and i begin searching high and low for bus 89. Stupid sia! Jux cos we miss out to search one area, it resulted in us walking in and out of the mrt station thr for countless times(exaggerated). Luckily we are not treated as suspicious person if not u-know-what! Ltr on met up wif the girls at bus-stop but they also sort of like lost hahas. Den we ask for help for passer-by lurh... We are in luk cos the lady not only noe, she also agree to bring us thr hehes! Reached, start to open window, inspect thing etc. Den begin making stuff for bbq, like: putting stick into the prawns, chicken wings etc. Some others go borrow bicycles: 4 normal, 2 couple de... Time past quickly... Soon, night fall ard 20:30hrs but food not yet ready cos charcoal not gd, fire small. Ppl borrow bicycle + buying stuff de not yet return. So ite, we split some food intended for bbq to cooking, frying. The timing was like perfect. Like when two dishes are left for cooking, the 'shop-er' were back so we started half eating half bbq-ing Andaman, took photoSSS too hahas! Was abt 10pm when we finish eating so i go wash all the utensils etc while some help clean area some go living room play. Wash ALL u noe?! No lah, not trying to show off. Cos tat the least i can do to help out wif things(: wash halfway gt ppl wan go home alr so jasmine like trick us say wan talk photo outside the house but in fact is trying to bomb us wif water bomb. Cos idk mah so tio shoot-.- nvr let me be bomber when i the one helping to make-.- still i gt throw one cos i go up and ask for it hahas! Ite, hazel like a bit unhappy. Reason? Maybe is the water splashed till her? No idea seriously... Ppl gone home after tat and left ppl who are staying overnitex... Go back washing den go see ppl play com lol! Hahas, here the funny part: fy use her female character go maple. But her attack low so she ask yz help her den, manage to get in party of 2(party wif a male). Den yz like wan seduce him. Doing all sort of things ite manage to get his number(tat guy must be a pervert sia... So easily seduce!) yz called him. At first he ignore say wat text but ite he gave in after yz act angry wif the female character. During the call, alissa pretend to be caller say hello den tat guy respond sia! What the hell he thinking? Like we let him hav his way like tat... Den yz took over and say hello den there is silent. Maybe we laugh too loud alr and the person noe is a trick. Sianz, he immediately log out the game sio hahas! Den we all laugh till stomach pain. After tat we go nitex cycling to downtown. Long journey, on the way one of the couple bike chain keep coming lose sia keep fixing like hell! Reach downtown eat mac(only eating shop open) den went back after eating. Reached back like ard 4-5am alr. On Maple play abit see yz solo zakum in maple for 30mins den after tat most ppl went to sleep. Me too. But uncomfortable on chair cant sleep... Den jasmine told me wake her up at 8am. Meanwhile i begin packing etc. Time don noe why pass rly fast! Wake ppl up, bath, settle down, return bike, chat abit. Den go eat breakfast at 9-10+am. I only drink cos still full cos of the mac early in the morning. After tat take alissa's bro car back. Feel like vomiting but luckily nvr if not i don noe how to ans to alissa and her bro. Anw, reach my own home at ard 1:30pm and use com and fell asleep unwilling. Wake up den go running, come back fell asleep agn... Wth... Maybe is because during chalet nvr sleep that why so tired hahas! Overall, enjoyed myself v.much during tis chalet. Thank ppl who organised, went for chalet and alissa for the ride home. Deeply appreciated ur effort and help(: Hope thr will be a nxt time soon. Looking forwards to it~ XD

2011-11-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

Monday, 141111, 21:32
Physic checked ans. Scored ard 30 out of 400k for mcq still quite ok lah. 2day gt chemistry. No hope liao chemistry. Confirm CMI de... Chemistry too hard for me lah! But nvm, over alr. Cant do anything... " Yeah! 'O' level over" is not what i gonna say. Exam over ppl feel happy but i emotion-less hahas! Whatever, tat ramdom~ oh ya oh ya! Tmr gt class chalet! Cant wait sia hehes! So excited muahaha!

2011-11-08T03:06:00.001+08:00

Monday, 071111, 09:33
Wah sianz... Woke up by alarm, from 7AM! Forget to turn off after the last day of school. Den jux now it keep snooze-ing, woke me up umpteem time lurh... Had a weird dream. Was at sku, doing pull up wif kw but dunno why, cant seem to pull... Den gt teacher(cant see the face) teach verbally den go off but i still cant pull. Den another teacher, PE teacher taught me and watch. Miracle-ly, i can do 56 pull up(finger facing me type of pull up) after tat pt come wif friend. Eye contact meet... Den like all listen to teacher teach us do the 'finger facing away from me' type pull up... After tat, we go try pulling(they are directly under pull up bar while i'm in btw pull up bar. After tat, we do consecutive 20 den pause but pt cant do alr. Rest a few sec, me and kw do another 10 more den no strength. We drop down from the bar and end of dream... Tat suck!

2011-11-08T02:59:00.000+08:00

Friday, 041111, 20:15
SS 2day! Sri Lanka i love you manz! Thx for coming out hahas! I feel like i am so damn lucky! Cos out of five theme, three theme will come out and there is a total of abt 36 SEQ tat nid to remember in tat three theme. But i only remember the theme: multi-ethnic and wat harmony in Singapore, a total of 6 theme. If i so unlucky the theme Sri Lanka nvr come out, i think i gonna die! Overall, i can only say i am lucky hahas~

2011-11-08T02:58:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 031111, 19:21
YEAH! 2day no paper so at home slack hehes! Watch tv/anime etc. Like i am the king like tat hahas! Tmr last paper alr, excluding MCQ. Wonder how i fair sia for my 'O' level... Wanted to know result but at the same time don want zzz... Don noe me, tis few days being so indecisive! But i will not be indecisive to blog de hahas! LOL!

2011-11-08T02:56:00.001+08:00

Wednesday, 021111, 21:12
Geog paper was still ok lah. But idk can scored at least 30 mark or not. Cos 2 last qns abit rush, lack of time, den not sure if i gt give example for the structured qns. Den afternoon the physic paper even worst! I totally not sure how to do/my ans is correct or not. Totally no confident sia... Think i die alr lah. Wlao! Siansation agn sia...

2011-11-01T02:07:00.001+08:00

Monday, 011111, 01:11
Wahaha, so many one sia, woot! Brand new month, new beginner! Everyone earn more money, hav gd health and a happy family hahas!
Paper 2 amath and chemistry. Amath still cmi = can make it but chemistry... Hahas, u noe it, it's CMI! = CANNOT MAKE IT! Don noe why, but still hope-ing for a pass at least. Since new month tat mean new start so must help me get a pass ok? Hahas!
Okok, gonna go sleep alr. Tmr paper start at 08:00! Need plenty of sleep so... Buh-bye!

2011-11-01T02:00:00.000+08:00

Monday, 311011, 21:32
TCH! Amath paper 1 2day. Can get 80/80, full mark de lurh! But den careless mistakes, 17 marks gone... Haiz... Complete the paper within 1 hour. Spotted altogether 19 marks tat are careless. Should i be happy? Cos if i nvr spot the 19 marks, i will lose 36 marks in all. Or should i feel sad and angry for not spotted the rest of careless mistakes? Damn irritated. Although i told myself no use crying over spilled milk. But then the milk is so wasted, feel so indignant abt it cos if i have been more careful, nth will happen... Anw, since worrying, angry-ing cant change anything, i jux hafta work harder for tmr!
Chiayong, put 2day matter aside, don think too much abt it, concentrate on tmr paper 2 first ok? After tat, u can be angry for all u wan... In short, chiayong, pls be on form tmr...

2011-11-01T01:59:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 301011, 04:12
Wlao! She is history alr why her image/name still fly over my head sia?! It been... ... Hmmm, gd qns. Cos i also forgot when the last time i talk to her. After the rumor spread-ed, thing have become awkward between us. Seriously, how heartless can i be?! Afterall we been classmate for 2 years(although nvr rly did talk AT ALL until sec 3, talk ABIT). But now? I treating her as stranger, passer-by in my life alr! I am confused, but who can i talk to since ppl cant be trusted... Humanity are the worst ever!

2011-11-01T01:58:00.001+08:00

Friday, 281011, 12:21
'O' lvl emath paper 2 2day!
2day the graph drawing was the smooth-est and the best out of all the curve i have done before sia! V.confident tat can get full mark for the graph hahas!
Argh! Careless mistake 5 marks sia! Don noe why square can see till square root-.-! I tabulated my mark. Emath paper 1 estimated 74 out of 80, which is 92.5 out of 100. Paper 2 get abt 91 out of 100? So, overall for emath is abt 91.75 mark? But den i heard the bell curve for A1 is 92.5 mark. Short of 0.75 marks sio! Hope the info is wrong den i can secure another A1. Pls ar, help me...
Next paper, amath paper 1, pls be easy. I am betting on both my math. Ss, chem, phy, combined humanities no confident. If both math cmi, i really at a lost. So pls...

2011-10-27T20:39:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 271011, 20:20
Emath paper 1 2day. Sianz sia! Walk out house still small rain, like droplets like tat. Den halfway, it get bigger. Not jux any big, it's way more bigger den big! Pant whole wet. Shirt only bottom wet. Currently now very tired, wanna sleep lurh. Think is because of the stupid rain! Paper is still...ok lah. Except gt one qns, abt the gradient thingy. Idk how do, anyhow write. I think only that one qns. The rest i noe the approach in doing. Careless mistake? Hahas, that is still unknown. Cant say too easy lah. If not ltr result come out not A1 den aiyo, die lah. Anw, it's over. Prepare for tmr paper 2. Hope it's easy(:

2011-10-27T20:38:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 271011, 02:37
Mum and sis always say nvr see me study. I study till i fallen asleep also nvr see. I study, no one say anything. When i nvr study, i received lots of comments. Jux what the world wan frm me?! Say me not nervous, very relax although it is 'O' level. Pls get tis fact right, not i not nervous, is i nvr show it... I nervous so? Wan it show it? Shown alr den what's nxt? Nth right?! I love keeping things to myself, i love not to trust others, i love not to bother others wif my expression cant ar?! Like tis also ur problem? Tsk!

2011-10-27T20:36:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 271011, 02:01
Ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch! I cant believe it! U noe the part of the bicycle which u use to stabilize it? I actually kick it! In the house which i have live for YEARS somemore! Anw, tmr... Nah, it 2day. Have emath paper 1 2day. Hope i can do well.
Oh, one last thing:
Hey *careless mistakes*, it hard on you to follow me for the past few years. So, it times to go for ur holiday for at least one week ok? U don come back also can. I will be very grateful to you...
All the best for later, Chiayong!

2011-10-27T20:34:00.002+08:00

Wednesday, 261011, 05:33
Wake up frm my dream. Hate it lah! Bad moment, of all time why wake up now sia?! On second thought, it's not a bad thing either. At least i don nid worry i 4gt what my dream abt(but in tis case i will rmb de cos it concern her). Damn short sia the dream! In the dream, i was walking back frm don-noe-where, near the market rubbish area there. Den my phone vibrate *1 new message*! Take closer look, was frm her! I was so happy that i run ard like some mad person. After calm down i did not open the msg to look at the detail cos i was struggling btw showing to me friend(he noe who i like) to prove tat she sent msg to me or opening the msg in case it something important cos i feel tat she won't msg me unless it important stuff. At that moment, another thought flash by, i was thinking and worrying tat it was taufiq fault by telling her i like her tat why she sent me msg. And the content of the msg is 'hope we can be and stay as friend', something along those line.
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End by waking up zzz...

2011-10-27T20:31:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 251011, 19:24
Went sku earlier in the morning but who knows, the math thingy is being push back by half an hour, which mean is 0830 den start! Argh, make me so fast go thr den wait like idiot... Not only tat, ite, dismissed at 2pm. Extended one hours lesson. Go thr, see see see, listen listen listen, do do do. Bored ttm lurh! But the thought of her make everything worth it. However, 人算不如天算, whole of 2day the lesson is in multi purpose room so i nvr even caught a glimpse of her! Tough luk, tch!

2011-10-27T20:28:00.000+08:00

Monday, 241011, 21:55
'O' level start 2day. Have English paper... It was still manageable. I think. I only do not hav much confidence in my compo, and summary. But i had done what i ought to do so, no regret!
Haiz..... Tmr hafta go for what intensive math agn... Frm 0800-1300! Total of 5 hrs u noe?! Damn lah, have to see tat person agn! Although tis is like the last time i see him, still don feel like going. But tis is compulsory. Somemore, last week gt 2 optional de, i skipped both... Too bad, bare wif it for A WHILE!
Bye ppl, go slp liao, if not tmr cant wake up(even through tat what i wan)...

2011-10-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

Friday, 14.1011, 13:00
Last day of sku... Take photo, exchange item wif merit tokens etc 2day. Started to miss teacher alr. English teacher and math teacher: Mrs poh and Mrs ong. They are such great teacher to me... (unlike someone) what can i do? Human are created wif feeling. Tat the gd and bad part of it... ... Stop! Seem off topic liao, backwards, backwards. Where am i... Oh yea, its Friday. 'sian~sation' agn-.- cos later still nid go back sku do paper... And den nxt week also nid. Argh! Stupid sia him. Why cant he let us bring home do?! Not like we will cheat right? Say wat at home gt lots of distraction like: television, headphones etc. And still say what wan train our body time to fit the time during 'O'level when the paper for 'O' level start during noon. Listen to him talk craps lah! Full of excuses only: Paper cant bring home do. I believe not only i hate him lurh! Be a teacher until so many ppl hate him. Failure sia! Go home and reflect on urself lah! Jerk!

Nvm... I endure for a few more days and it will all be over: (subete owarida)! Muahaha XD

2011-10-18T20:10:00.004+08:00

Wednesday, 121011, 21:25
Freaking hate tat johni sia... Still prefer Mrs ong to teach. Tat stupid johni, keep giving ppl work to do, say wat like exam to train us! Pls lah, if doing all tis will help den everyone is a top score-r alr by now ok?! And every sku is alr of the same standard! Whatever u doing now is only killing ppl passion towards math subject. In the past, Chinese was rank first followed by math den sci in my heart. Because sec 3, i also experience tis same situation. Only tat time is Chinese, my Chinese teacher keep giving paper to do and do and do. Tat why now Chinese in rank bottom instead of first. Den math began to rank first when taught by Mrs ong. But now? Math also shifted to the bottom few! Are u certain u are teaching and helping students build passion, confident in tat subject u teaching? Are u sure ur job is to be a teacher? Stop making me laugh! There a limit to ur joke! Simple thing such as voicing out our unhappiness also result in u showing us attitude and tat stupid face of urs. Seriously, if it only me being complacent, i admit i am being unreasonable. But now is the whole class! Understand?! WHOLE CLASS! U don give work, less paper to mark, earn same salary. U give work, mark/no mark, same salary! Does not make any different right?! So why cant add another factor: 'listen to us complaining' and still earn same salary? Indeed, we did grumble about stuff and all tis. But ite we still gt do ur work right? It a fact tat math is taking up almost all our time and we cant even do the hmwk for other subject, much less studying/revising! So why cant we complain abit? Since he is a math teacher he can go calculate himself:
Monday - 1hr of math
Tuesday - 2hrs of math
Wednesday - 2 hrs of math
Thursday - 1hr of math
Friday - 2hrs of math
Total 8HRS OF MATH! Tat not all! Include staying back after sku:
Monday - 1hr staying back
Wednesday - 1hr staying back
Friday - 5HRS STAYING BACK!
THAT INSANE! One week a total of staying back of 15hrs! Pls lah! We human, not robot! We nid rest. Even robot cant stay forever and will rust wif each passing day! Pls spare a thought for us! We are still growing, we are not the same as u! One thing for sure, when i gt my 'O' level certificate, i won't thank or blame u for getting whatever grade. If grade not ideal, i blame myself. If grade gd, i thank all my math teacher: 'Mrs ong, mdm tan, pri sku teacher(help me build up my passion and foundation)' except u, 'Mr heartless'!

2011-10-18T20:06:00.001+08:00

Monday, 260911, 23:55
Haiz, late for sku 2day. First time in my sec life sia... Rmb, in pri sku i was late for sku because i went home take something which ite teacher nvr use/collect. 2day leh, wake up thrice! First when my parent went to work. Second, wake up at eight but don noe why i went back to sleep. Lastly, when i wake up... no, i practically jump out of my bed and realized tat it was 0830. I rush to sku hoping tat i can make it in time... But too bad, gt caught by the security guard uncle. Reached class jux nice is the starting of the first lesson, but den, who noe, teacher nvr come! Haiz, unlucky sio 2day!

2011-09-18T01:53:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 180911, 01:53
Ppl, i will be taking a break from blog-ing for the time being. U noe, prelim, 'O' lvl etc. All troublesome things are coming. So, wish me gd luk and i be back asap(:

2011-09-18T01:53:00.001+08:00

Wednesday, 070911, 20:05
Freak it lah! When watching television, parents keep saying: 'acting acting' den commenting on the way the actors and actresses act. Pls lah! U also say acting alr right? So particular abt it for what! Keep at one side commenting the same things over and overs agn using the same words everytime! U not frustrated does not mean other won't be frustrated okay?! Like i am the first one who said those word(when it is sis). I only 'improve' the sentence to be more clear to both of u only wat! Direct anger at me for what! The television u buy de mean u v.big sia! How big? At most in future i big a bigger one for u lah! Or btr still, don buy any television when the television spoiled lah, den tis kind of thing won't happened alr! DAMN IT!

2011-09-18T01:52:00.001+08:00

Monday, 050911, 21:34
Why, everytime when i gt chem qns wrong and when mdm tan was going through it and when she say thing like: it ok if u get it wrong, 'O' lvl don repeat same mistake or this qns is a bit hard etc, i tend to relax and think i can do well in O lvl. How can tat be? I am jux lying to myself. Taking the easy way out, don study etc. I am jux preparing to die! Same for physic, both sciences i don think to understand the concept. Ppl often say those who are gd in math will also be gd in sci. Tat utter rubbish sia... I seem to major and excel in math(not including my major careless mistakes problem) but i cant make it for my sciences! Argh, i don wan fail. I don wan score badly for my 'O' lvl! Really, who understand my current thoughts or the predicament i am in now?

2011-09-18T01:50:00.001+08:00

Monday, 050911, 16:20
Tired! have KFC for lunch in the afternoon. Choose the cheapest de, kfc de snacker, cos no money to buy other lurh. The rest like all so expensive sia! Idk why, i having fun sia! I mean for the last 2hrs of 2day sci camp lah. Cos was 'playing' wif chemical all tis(: it was fun to played wif. IF u noe how to do it or when teacher wasn't around. Too bad, tmr de lesson is 4hrs physic only 2hrs chem. Somemore is theory. Haiz... So not looking forwards to it!

2011-09-18T01:45:00.005+08:00

Monday, 050911,　07:45
Sci camp begin 2day and end tmr... Wake up early in the morning. *yawn* standard: on com first. Since i will be going to sku until 15:30, might as well use the time i not around to convert some anime file so can watch on psp hahas(:

2011-09-05T17:53:00.002+08:00

Thursday, 010911, 18:43
Teachers' day celebration. Wake up early in the morning to go sku help out decorating. Reached sku at 6am! I am freaking earlier! And there still no ppl(of cos, look at the time!). Ok, cut short. 2day... did not work out right. It all because i am incapable as their chairman. I cant take them in hand. I cant make them listen to me. They are so carefree wif life tat they don see the important in matter at hand. My vice-chairman, Hazel, give another talk agn, i totally understand what she meant and how she felt. It the last celebration we hav tis year and nxt year we jux going to spread out to different area. We hav no idea if we will see each other anot. And yet they does not cherish whatever we hav now. We nvr ask for their help in decoration part so we don and cant blame them for not helping. But they totally don even appreciate what we had done for them. Arguments was all ard. Even those during lesson are such a gd friends also started in argument. Even those tat are not into scolding/getting angry also flare up. A party for teachers, ite, haiz... Hazel was so looking forward to taking class photo too. But because of tis... She also prepare food, tibits, sweets etc but ite, she did not even eat. Not even the tiniest bit. To be exact, she was nowhere in sight. I called her, phone was not picked up. This shown she don even hav the feeling to attend at all after all this! Cant ppl jux be more aware and considerate towards thing that are happening in their surrounding? It jux... make ppl feel so disappointed. As this is the attitude they hav shown to their classmates for 2-4years: 'Don care, not my concern. I jux nid enjoy myself, hav fun in life'. That it! Nth more, nth less! Tis class is beyond hopeless... 2day was a total mess, total failure!

2011-09-05T17:52:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 300811, 03:33
Selamat Hari Raya Puasa to all the Malays, especially my malay friends. Enjoy ur day(:

Hmmm... Currently 03:35. After typing tis gonna sleep alr. Wonder ltr what time will i wake up in the morning... Nvm, cos 2day, not only my mum at home. Dad as well. So i bet, i am sure, i confirm, guarantee plus chop tat it not gonna be a gd day for me... In fact, it gonna seem like a long long long torture for me... It like i am in a tunnel and no matter how far i walk or run, i cant see the light ahead... Hahas, tat sound too drama alr lah! Like for ppl tat lost hope alr like tat-.-! zzz... zzz... Ok lah, cant keep up alr, gonna sleep now. Nitex all...or rather a very gd morning everyone! Nah, it the same, only how u look at it. Okok, STOP! If continue, it will seem endless. Bye~

2011-09-05T17:48:00.002+08:00

Monday, 290811, 21:56
Damn bored 2day sia!
Supposinglly it my free day de, use com day, watch tv day etc. But den ytd my mum actually told me she no work 2day. So pissed off sia! Alr decided what i wan do lurh! Den she said tat, make my every action restricted. Den was like for the whole day nvr talk... Actually, also not whole day cos i sleep till 13:00, half day gone! Maybe too tired alr hahas(: back to where i were: she 2day no work and spoil my plan totally, nvm, i take it as i unlucky. BUT! Now u telling me she tmr also no work! Hey, are u kidding me?! Is tis some kinda joke cos it ain't funny. At all! Wth lah! I keep enduring sia... Tmr Hari Raya Puasa what hav it got to do wif factory filled wif Chinese ppl?! I not being racist, i jux mean that when we having Chinese new year, the Malays are still working(Is like Chinese celebration like that). Now is hari raya puasa, strictly speaking, is the malay new year. So the Chinese can still be working, but why they are not? Argh! Working thingy is so complicated, nxt time i gonna be the boss and set rule myself! AND, God don noe make life easier by making money dropped frm sky ar den ppl life happily ever after! Freaking pissed!

2011-09-05T17:47:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 280811, 21:45
Wake up at 10:30 like tis. Den my head feel v.pain. Don noe why... The feeling is like lack of sleep like that. But it kinda like i sleep too much 2day lurh! Cos when i wake up for sku at 6+ am, gt less than the amount of sleep i hav compared to 2day, nth happened. Stupid one lol my body! Den followed by on-ing com at 11:25 am, the moment i go internet, mum reach home from jurong west so i off it immediately. Sad ar): no choice, hafta use phone go internet, listen music etc. After a while go back on com, completely cant find things to do with the headache! Followed by playing basketball wif friends. Come home eat dinner, watch show, etc.

One sentence summarized everything: i practically wasted my life for 2day!

2011-09-05T17:44:00.002+08:00

Saturday, 270811, 18:50
Do ppl nowadays hav death wish? Now is still 7th lunar month, the door not yet close. Do they wanna go through that door? I think they do sia! 2day, after mum come home at 18:50, i went to bath and go out to help both of us buy dinner. Den i saw tis 40-50 old woman jay-walking sia. That not the problem. The problem is tat it is not green man at the traffic light and there a motorcycle coming. Somemore it is raining! The motorcyclist reduces the speed and go around her sia. Ground so slippery lucky no fall. If fall i think how tat old woman gonna pay for tat-.- If she wanna throw her life away go somewhere else lah! Wan frame and harm other for murdering or what? Pls be considerate can anot. If wanna jay-walk den follow the rule lah! OR should i say common sense instead?! Tat because there are inconsiderate ppl like that old woman tat why there ARE motorcycle accident. Part of it is generated by heartless ppl like that old woman! Damn pissed off sia. Maybe is because of tis, that why dad disallowing me to learn motorcycle, giving reason such as: 'it is dangerous!' All that old woman or ppl like her de fault sia! Freak inconsiderate ppl like u all!

2011-09-05T17:39:00.003+08:00

Saturday, 270811, 16:56
Early in the morning gt wake up by bro's phone de alarm clock... Actually, i alr woke up b4 tat. Somewhere around 7:30 like tis. Jux... auto wake up. It always like tis. School day no matter wat i cant seem to wake up. When it is weekends or holiday, my body will wake up at the time when i suppose to wake up for sku zzz... Anw, i wake up and saw dad at the back taking phone, like jux finished talking to his friend. Wash up and dad ask if i wanna go out eat. Cos the dishes mum cook hafta last till lunch too. At first idk but ite i still followed hahas(: Eat economic mi fen plus hotdog. AND kopi-o! It standardized. Everytime it jux me and dad having dinner, it always mi fen plus kopi-o for breakfast! It been don noe how many years i hav been eating together wif my dad alr. I cant even recall when the last time i did it. I am so ashamed of myself! Hmm... maybe i nid to do it frequently frm now on. Yea, 2day also the day dad and sis and bro go back Malaysia. Dad go back one day to scout the area so nxt time when we go back, we noe where to board and alight the train(: bro and sis go for a week! Jealous max! All the delicious food, ar, miss it sia! Argh, stupid prelim and 'O' lvl-.-! Make me cant enjoy! Sad ar): but nvm, shall enjoy myself max max after tat hehes(: when dad they all went back Malaysia, left me at home(mum working till 5:30 2day). I was so lonely! Now i understood how grandma felt to watch us coming back Singapore. It felt xtremely bad and sad inside... Even dad gone for a day, i also felt it greatly and deeply inside me. Now i noe how badly i feel missing dad... Hmm, should i say luckily? Cos without computer wif me, my mind would definitely run wild. For example: have they arrival, what they currently doing. Are they safe etc and etc. I keep 'chasing' all those negative thoughts out of my mind but they keep coming back agn and agn... It the computer that help me to minimise the appearance of all those unwanted thoughts. I know, relying on computer is not a long term solution. But other than that, idk what else i can do. Everything else will evoke my feeling of unsettlement... ... Ok, don talk abt tis anymore, in few hours they gonna arrival. Tat what i noe and what i nid to noe. So, all i can do is stay at Singapore, continue to be jealous):

2011-09-05T17:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 240811, 06:49
Had a weird but kinda feeling great dream. I was jux suddenly in my room, sleeping when i had tis dream. Den i jux kinda wake up cos it's time for school den i saw like a mattress on the floor. Guess who was on it? It's her sia!!! Idk why but i don take it as a matter, like she SUPPOSED to be there in the first place and go back to my sleep cos i was too tired... Nxt time i woke up, i check phone for timing and it was 6:36am, i rmb i look below agn cos i noe there is someone there. But tis time only gt the mattress, no ppl. Den i realized tat she might had gone to school as last time, i coincidentally see her walking to sku at tis timing. And den at tis moment, idk why, i like wake up frm my dream. Bad moment sia! Spoiler, at least let me dream of us going sku together and having conversation which i can rmb right?! Hope it happen in my next dream(: Agn, that dream was really v.realistic XD

2011-08-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 230811, 22:34
Wlao! Prelim start on 25th of august, the sci practical, which is none of my concern... Exam time-table say no paper don nid come. Last few day also heard teachers say don nid come but den 2day teacher say must come. Wth... Although is sci practical but it still exam right? Give us holiday den took it back! Might as well don give in the first place, make me happy for nth-.- pissed sia, like i already planned what i wanna do on that day alr leh. Somemore, on that day, Thursday, gt johni math class. Sian lah, don wan see him sia... Still prefer Mrs ong to teacher lurh! Johni damn attitude lol. Argh! 'sian-sation' max... The more i think the more sad and unfair i feel):

2011-08-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 180811, 21:37
2day i gt back my Chinese 'O' lvl result! Guess what? I scored an A1 for it! I was so happy! At first when my Chinese teacher told me i gt A1, i could not believe it. I even thought to myself: 'i wish i really DID scored A1 and there no error whatsoever'. Cos i v.afraid i will fall down hard from all the excitement i got after hearing result. I finally secure one subject. Jux 4/5 subject more, jys! Eng 'O' lvl oral 2day too. It was not so bad... I think. Worst scenario is tat i heard 18th instead of 80th! What the &%/!@?,. It was so error ttm lah! So ps somemore! ... ... Nvm, all done is done, work hard towards other papers(: YEAH~!

2011-08-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 160811, 02:48
Cant seem to get to sleep. Maybe is cos in the afternoon i slept for one and a half hours. Tat why now cant fall asleep. GCE O LVL English oral for me is on tis Thursday, 18th of august. Hate it sia! Is like making me feel tat i gt something that is left undone and i gotta get it done asap! But now the problem is i cant bring forwards the time for oral! Thursday ar Thursday, can u faster come and let me feel btr. Seriously, not only tat... Even the O LVL other subject: physic and chemistry, whenever i thought of it, i feel frustrated abt it. I jux don seem to get it and i don even noe why... It like when the question put it in another way of asking. I immediately stun! I don noe how answer! Please ar, gt limiting time u noe? Don mess wif me agn... If wan mess at least after O lvl lah! Can can? Stupid question!

2011-08-16T21:56:00.001+08:00

Monday, 150811, 02:30
If i remember correctly, tmr is the day for collecting money for the graduation nitex thingy. 50dollars. Equal to one month plus saving if no eat): BUT me not going. This kind of socializing is jux ... Not suitable for me? I hate to gather ard for the last time. I know it because i experienced it. Jux like primary sku friends, out of so many, i only still in contact wif less than the number of fingers a person hav. Pathetic! Is like that party/gathering is for u to sad goodbye to each other. Seriously, i am tat kind of person who are easily influence wif bad/sad emotion. All tis may sound like excuses, but tat frm my point of views. I noe best if it is excuses or not, so... Yea, tat my point of view.
[I bet when it is her turn, she will definitely go for it de. Cos tat the kind of person she is(: i am nvr mistaken abt people de. Especially her(: ] <<< this is so RANDOM Hahas!

2011-08-16T21:54:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 090811, 19:58
Happy 46th birthday Singapore(: waiting for people to jio me go out. Mum go work. Tough eh? Singapore's birthday also nid work. Dad no work, stay at home. Sadly, u guessed it: No freedom): 4gt ytd i quarrel wif parents over wat alr so 2day is like the whole day nvr talk to them... Aiya, 4get abt it lah, 2day special occasion so let not talk abt bad/sad stuff or stuff tat will spoil the mood(: On second thought, there ISN'T anything tat won't spoil the mood to talk away-.- so, 2day post is rather short, bye~(:

2011-08-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

Monday, 080811, 19:54
National day celebration. 2day, sang alot of song. All the song the same one lah. As in similar to pri sku tat kind of national song. I wan something new. Keep singing the same song over and over agn seem kinda bored~ hope them faster compose more music(:
In the afternoon after i reached him and used com, heard PAP kidz sang the pledge and other national songs. It brought back so much memories sia... Like when i am their age i also say along all tis, play together etc. The smiling towards one another are real. Unlike now, people are wearing a smiling mask when next to each other... ... Wait! I gonna stop here alr. Cos my tis post is going 'downhill' alr. Positive positive and suddenly negative stuffs-.-! Ok den, buh-bye XD

2011-08-16T21:49:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 040811, 23:55
Play incline skating during PE. Wan learn U-turn fall but stupid sia, my legs don wan work wif me... Fall down lots of time. 2day unlucky sia, Last lesson math hav time practice. Mrs ong nvr come den combine class lurh. Do till halfway Mr yeo, the discipline master came in take a paper regarding who insult austitic ppl etc de(my class gt one). He ask who did tat(insulting by writing words on paper) to own up but no one own up so tmr investigation. We don even noe is our class or not lol. Maybe is students frm other class. He say wan us cooperate wif him but den don wan answer our question when we asked him... Actually, i am quite looking forwards toward tmr... Cos i nvr been investigated before, wanna experience how it feel like hahas(:

2011-08-04T01:05:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 310711, 11:29
2day last day of the month of July. And it also the start of the 7th lunar month hungry ghost festival. It has always be some sort of practice for my family 'pay respect' to the 'brother and sister' by offering and praying. On tis day, i will always cant wait to do tis practice. I myself is as clueless as you. Cos tis kind of thing people are mostly avoid or rather not talk abt it. But i seem to be the opposite. Weird huh! Oh ya, hahas, starting frm tmr onwards, i will also be fasting hehes! Nice right? It no big deal anyway~ wow, look at the time, i gotta go sleep, if not tmr i gonna hav a hard hard time waking up...see ya all!

2011-08-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

Friday, 290711, 23:16
sku as usual, boring. I hate to admit, but taufiq is a great joker. Without him, it so quiet, not as lively anymore. And den he 2day nvr come-.- aiya, actually also cant blame him. Something sad happened in his family, his grandfather passed away. (my condolences) Now thinking back, my maternal grandfather passed away seem like v.long ago. And the thought of dying jux sadden me. Though i noe it part of life cycle. I still hav that feeling i hated. Cant help... ... ... Stop, get back here. If continue, i going to get too emotional agn. Anyway, a long long study day ended v.fast cos every Friday early dismissal. When back home, change, eat, rest a while, lie down on bed. Fallen asleep! 2day 2:30-3:30 gt supp abt chemistry skill 3. Lucky mdm tan is not free. If not i played Truany sio! All my nose fault lah, keep sneezing making me tired. I slept till 6pm den wake up. I was like freak! I 6pm gt nitex exam... Wth... I rush and gt to sku at 6:15. lucky exam not yet begin. lucky exam not yet begin. Phew~ my class do like paper 1 6qns, paper 2 5qns. Ridiculous sia! My paper 1 ALL wrong! ALL DUE TO CARELESS MISTAKES! Stupid sia! Is like my skill in making careless mistakes is getting btr and btr and occur more and more frequently. Seriously, 'O' lvl btr don happen. Pls... And the rest of my day is ruined, that needless to say-.-! Nvm, i go sleep, wake up will be a fine day once again!

2011-08-04T00:55:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 190711, 22:39
Ever since i saw u smile, tat image had been deeply etched in my brain. Whenever i am not occupied wif stuff and work etc, the image of you smiling nvr fail to appear in my mind. And at the same moment, everytime i have tat urge to try to say tat u gt an extremely sweet smile to u as though u are jux right infront of me. But, i have to get the fact right tat it is jux my mind playing wif me, it not real, it virtual... And u noe how disappointed it is? And everytime my friend said i like tat girl(i only give them surname as clue), i had to deny it, so as to keep my feeling for you to the minimum. But... I failed. I seem so useless, not able to win over the feeling i hav for u. I cant even get myself to admit tat i hav feeling for u...

2011-08-04T00:53:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, 190711, 19:47
Gosh! What hav i been doing?! What the problem wif me trying to impress everyone? What is wif me trying to be middleman, trying to be gd to both sides? Sooner or later i am going to offend both sides and lost them both.

2011-08-04T00:48:00.001+08:00

Monday, 180711, 22:44
You, is you! You are the one who made me smile more frequently and you are the one who teaches me how to smile from the bottom of my heart. But why after teaching all tis the distance between us seem to be growing apart and fading away. I know it hard to communicate since we are in different class but it does not change the fact tat u did teaches me to smile though u in different class. In addition, it jux one door apart to be exact! Why everytime our conversation or starting conversation have to revolve around or start wif sku work or sku activities? Is sku work and the activities the only thing tat is keeping us together till now? I hate to admit, but it seem true... If u gonna leave me halfway, u might as well don pick me up in the first place. Now what is the meaning of tis? Are u trying to show me how irresponsible u are?!

2011-08-04T00:45:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 170711, 21:56
Freak u! Stop screwing my mood. Like one week alr sia... Blaming me for switching on com for so long. Come on, now only 12+ am. When u on till tis late u gt say the same thing to urself anot? Den when i say 'what right u hav to say abt me when u urself also doing the thing i did' u started to show me attitude since then! Hey pls lah, if u gt the mouth to say other, u must also hav the ears to listen to what other gt to say! Stop being so unreasonable. In the past keep saying i pity, hold on to grudge overnight. Now what the situation? I change for btr alr, but it now u who is so pity! For goddess sake! Stop all tis, seriously, stop agitating me, i cant be agitated. If something happen to u don point finger at me! FREAK U!

2011-08-04T00:43:00.001+08:00

Friday, 150711, 23:29
Fitness run 2day, i saw her! I ran 33 position for male... Slow sia! Stupid lurh!... The first few of them are all soccer player sia! So unfair): opps, 4gt she gt 6th or 3rd position alr. I think is 3rd. She pro sio! Hahas, although i did not get into top 10 for individual, i gt third for team de. And overall we gt champion for best performance for class de! Hahas, 4B is so great sia, keep getting award leh hehes!

2011-08-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

Monday, 110711, 02:40
stop acting like u seriously wan things to be as one family! Tv, i only noe how to use. When u ask me which is better, i seriously hav no freaking idea! So why should i tag along wif u all to get a new television? Den when u heard me say me not going den started to give me attitude. Seriously, u can keep ur freaking attitude to urself, i don give a damn abt it! Somemore in the first place in the morning i alr told bro i not going is u urself sleep like there's no tmr and did not heard what i say. So stop jumping to conclusion when u urself don EVEN NOE the situation. Stop acting all high and mighty!
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Phew, much btr after saying everything out. Opps hahas, tis blog is become more and more like a place for me to vent all my frustration and unhappy. At least tat what i am happy abt, if not if i bottom everything up, sooner or later i gonna hav depression (touch wood).

2011-08-04T00:36:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 190611, 23:46
Argh! Cant believe it! For the first time in my 16years, i 4gt 2day is father day! Freak! Jux what the hell am i doing?! Though ite i still gt wish, but it was somewhere around 10:30pm. Even if i gt say, why do i feel like i was as gd as nt saying? IDIOT Chiayong!

2011-06-15T00:52:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 140611, 02:19
Currently raining outside. Suddenly a heavy downpour. What a nice weather it is. Haiz, 6 days nvr post. Time fly so fast. Tis the second week of holiday alr. Since after the enrichment, i do not feel motivated to study or prove anything anymore. I starting to do what i hated most: procrastination. I hav not accomplish anything at all and the weight in my heart is starting to rise agn. Up till now, i could nvr do anything without anyone out there for me to prove to. And i hate it to the core. Cos am i gonna live my life tat depend on other? Does tat mean tat if there no one den i will not be able to accomplish anything? I... gotta think of solution before it too late. Pls let me make it in time.
Other than tat, tsk! I hav been accumulating all the post recently. It bad. Jux how long do i gonna stack them together and post them all at one go? Haiz...

2011-06-15T00:46:00.003+08:00

Wednesday, 080611, 23:19
2day the day. Everything hav to come to an end. I feel too emotional but i still manage to endure to the end of coaches' teaching and talking. 2day we learn about how to take notes effectively, how to prepare for our 'O' lvl etc. 2day coaches ask us to form into 4 grps and started to unsolved puzzle. The puzzle pieces is in the middle and when coaches blow whistle once den one person frm each grp send one person out to take one piece and go back. Last grp to solve the puzzle hav to do forfeit. Though some of my classmate took alot of pieces into their hand, not playing fairly, we still manage to hav fun. But ite, there's no forfeit cos dk who lost one piece of the puzzle so is incomplete. We also played 'splat', and something similar to 'cling'. When the coaches ended the enrichment, i hope it can go on further but it cant. I move up to ask for autograph. When i stand beside her for autograph, she told me tis: 'work hard, idw to see you nxt year'. After listening i gt the urge to pull up my sock and prove to her tat i can do it. At the moment, i also notice something tat i also don like. Although she may not hav said and i hope i saw wrongly, but i doubt so. I noe she is abit sad to leave frm her eye as her eye started to turn red and water about to form at the corner of her eyes. But she still try to be happy to the end. Not only she felt that way, i also felt it too. Afterall, tis 3 days we hav been spending time together, sharing thoughts, ideas together, it jux like a big family. And now hav to separate, of cos will feel abit of she bu de. Nevertheless, i still wan to say tis: ' thank coach Denise and coach Eddie for everything you done and shared. We may be noisy for your enrichment at time, but you still treat us nicely. Even though some of the students may arrived late for your enrichment, you still welcome them and say hi/greet them when they come in(even if they are 1hr or 2hrs late). You do your best to bring laughters and joys to the class and make sure we understand what you talking about and make us recite what you teach to help us refocus the detail/information for preparing for 'O' lvl. There are still many many more of what you have done. No matter if you trying your best to teach or not, there is no increase in pay. In other word, you all do not hav the obligation to do so hard. But you did and I am grateful for whatever you did and I will always remember this 3 days as part of my best memories. Hope you all will not forget too. Once again thank you!

2011-06-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, 070611, 23:23
Second day of the enrichment. Most memorable memories is the gaming, where our class form two circle, female form circle inside while male form circle outside of female. And coaches will be trying to pull ppl out of the circle. Is tis trying to test for our class cooperation? Hahas, i hav no idea. My hand trying to resist frm being pull hurt a little after all the pulling thingy ended): It may be a simple game but it actually display how strong our bond as a class is. In the aspects of coaches talking and teaching, it is v.different frm our sku teachers in the way that i do not hav the feeling of being 'hypnotized'. I also started to feel abit of reluctant to say good bye after tmr(last day of enrichment). It how funny why things have to happen even though it is going to end. Why must we meet new people, build bonds and only ite to be separate agn. What ridiculous nonsense is this. Is this fun? It hurt even if it is jux for a few minutes or seconds! ... ... Tsk! Me being too emotional agn. Seriously, what hav gotten into me? In the first place i shouldn't hav go up and try to be nice to them to impress them etc. If so, i will not hav the feeling of unwillingness to let go of things. Chiayong ar Chiayong, when are you gonna stop letting emotion get the btr of u?

2011-06-15T00:41:00.001+08:00

Monday, 060611, 22:22
2day is the first day of the Project Super Achiever enrichment. Before the program, i was v.unwilling to go. Cos i thought it will be jux any other enrichments, sitting down there listening to the coaches talk talk talk. To make things worst, i think there is only one break like in the past. But tis enrichment is different. The coaches are v.friendly and are always there to help us out. There is also a total of 3 breaks which allow us to relax and in addition, the coaches are always being thoughtful for us. They noe we v.tired so they thought of ways to move our body etc. The room that we were in were always filled wif laughter and joy. Although the duration is frm 8am-6pm, 10hrs long, the time seem to pass by v.quickly. Before i noe it, it is time to go home. However, i am v.much looking towards the arrival of tmr(:

2011-05-31T01:06:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 260511, 18:00
Parents meeting seeing 2day. Results... Atrocious! Shall nt elaborate. Make me feel angry and disappointed. Stupid, have to help out teacher wif the making of arrival of student wif parent and giving them queue number. Frm 3 to 8+! Morning ard 7 to 12 is mock exam for Chinese. After tat is 1 to 2:30 for final revision for Monday O lvl. So, in other word, i nvr get a rest frm sku till after 8+!!! Freak it-.-!
Cant wait ar? Now is ur time more important or ur son stomach more important. Wait abit longer will kill is it? So wat if u come early? It not as if u go home gt stuff to do! At home only jux clean here clean there. FYI, it v.frustrated.

2011-05-31T00:58:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 240511, 07:12
Chinese intensive tis week too, same ard last week. So 2hrs in the morning and 2hrs after sku. Tired max when reached home but mum don allow me to sleep! Poor me): hmm, did something else happened? Cos i cant think of any hahas(: only rmb tat idk why yesterday so tired, fell asleep at abt 12plus when in other days, i fell asleep between 1-2am. I was amazed by myself too cos everytime before i enter my LaLa land, i would always check my phone but i did not do so yesterday. Oh ya, i rmb, almost step on don noe dog shit or wat tis morning. So unlucky sia! Ok, me noe tis is v.random, and idk why it jux type out on his own!

Tuesday, 240511, 23:16
after sku watch pirate of the carribean on stranger tides wif bro and sis. Tis the second time watched movie wif them. So rare right? Hahas i noe. But, wat can i do? I am nt the son of a billionaire, where i find so much money for movies etc? Maybe i am one... in my dream XD

2011-05-31T00:52:00.000+08:00

Monday, 230511, 03:03 Bored! Bored! Bored! It so peaceful that it's freaking me out! Cant something jux happened and make me get excited over it? Or at least don make me as bored as now! So sad, everytime my mind is not occupied, i will always think of you(u nvr noe. Not in the past, not now, and maybe not in the future as well). Whatever~ when i am alone, things abt study, exam, future etc will come flooding my mind. And whenever i think abt exam, i will be reminded of 'O' lvl Chinese exam approaching. It so irritating. It likes a load in my heart. I feel unsettle abt it. Why to find job we nid to study? Why cant we jux enjoy life and grow up and still found job and earn a living? Why government or rather people(bosses) out there wan a certificate so tat u will be recognised of ur ability? Don they noe that even without/wif lower cert, we can still be more experience in doing things than those wif cert? If i rly hav no study and wan a job, why cant jux learn the ability on the spot? If u are determined, u can learn it well or even btr than those wif much higher cert even though u learn it on the spot. It only depend on whether u gt the heart, gt put ur heart into doing things or not. Think abt tis too. Does the things we do help us in future? For example if you aspired to be police in future, does learning chemistry, social study, and math etc help u in anyway? I mean it nt as though u learn all tat subject to learn how to catch criminal and use guns right? Or another example, do we nid to understand geographical stuffs and history or even science to be a cashier? Do we? So life is all crap! It abt who's best at fooling who and who stupid to be fooled! F.R.E.A.K.O

2011-05-31T00:48:00.001+08:00

Friday, 200511, 15:26
sport carnival at CCAB 2day. The bus trip after the mrt trip is wanting my life. I was so gonna vomit even though there nth to vomit out! Shall cut out on opening. Participate in relay run. Gt second place for our class. Lost to other class by 0.02 seconds. WTH! The time gaps is so short! Nvm, ay least btr than none. After running don noe why feel like vomiting again. So cant go anywhere for a while. So sad): ite, i make my way to multi purpose hall(where they play volleyball, tchoukball) to lie down and rest. Feel btr after some rest. Ending was like, u noe, received medal, take bus home, slp etc. Hahas, v.tired ar~

2011-05-21T01:45:00.002+08:00

Monday, 160511, 18:59
Chiayong ar chiayong, when are u going to learn frm ur mistake? How many more careless mistakes can u continue to make, how many more marks can u afford to lose? Chinese, geog, amath. All tis papers u made lots of careless mistakes. Take amath for example, jux tat subject, paper 2 only, u lost 30 marks due to careless mistake! Otherwise u can top tat subject u noe! zzz... Tis nt the first time alr. Pri sku, due to one careless mistake, i missed getting full marks, now i missed getting top. Now alr mid-year, in few months time u be taking '0' lvl. Do u intend to bring ur careless mistake there? Do u wanna sit for another '0' lvl? Seriously idw to. Pls, Chiayong, get rid of ur careless mistake. Pls!

2011-05-21T01:41:00.004+08:00

Sunday, 150511, 22:09
Hahas, 2day quite fun for my birthday! Went to dim tai fung to hav dinner with family members. The food ok lah. <<< don nid bother asking me how gd or not... Cos everything is eat-able. Different case for my favourite food lah such as chilli with meat, mango, bitter gourd and tofu soup etc(: After eating went Everlast shop buy one pair of shoe for going out for me. Gosh! It cost 50+ dollars. It so expensive...? Hahas idk, cos everyone the mind concept is different frm one another. After mine done, we split into adult-children grp. They shop theirs, we shop ours hehes(: First go ard JP shop looking for watches. Not for me lol so sad. Is for my sis the friend birthday present. We keep going in circle for like don noe how many time nia~ ite, bought one exactly 50 dollars the watch(not one person 50 dollars. The cost is split btw 4 ppl). After tat go shop for bro watch.<<

2011-05-21T01:39:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 150511, 00:00
2day my birthday, the most i wanna thx are my mum and dad. Cos without them, there wont be me!
今天我生日最想感谢的是我父母亲。因为没有他们就没有我！

2011-05-21T01:34:00.001+08:00

Saturday, 140511, 19:00
Freak u! I was jux trying to bond myself into the family. I don wanna distance myself away frm the family member. But u say i v.irritating and ask me shut up cos u wan watch ur show on itouch! Fine! Nvm... It always been me who is the one-sided one. I deserve it. After i graduate and hav nth to do wif study, i don nid to endure all tis anymore! U walk ur own path and i walk mine!

2011-05-21T01:30:00.003+08:00

Friday, 130511, 16:39
2day no sku. Or should i say 2day no paper so don nid to go sku(: wait up at 08:33. Wash up and sit in front of the com watch 'The Amazing Strategies Liu Bo Wen'. Watch till 09:30 den go change and get ready to go out cos meeting friend at 10:30 at JP. Sad ar, watch nt even one ep): Stupid bus 240! Actually planned on walking to JP de. But the bus arrived and make me reach 13mins EARLIER ALONE?! Tat still ok cos i hate making other wait too so i hav to like so call set a gd example hehe(: However, i actually waited 30+ mins for the FIRST person to come. They called me nt to be late, they themselves are late-.-! Jux imaging, watching the bus tat u gonna board pass by u one after another! Argh! When arrive at jurong west stadium at abt 11:15, go book court etc and started our game(should nt elaborate). Anyway, we actually intended to leave at 13:30 but the other keep dragging and dragging. Ite, 14:30 den go off... Went KFC after tat. Takeaway set meal and shared wif bro and sis. <<

2011-05-21T01:25:00.004+08:00

Friday, 130511, 03:27
'Friends', what are they? What the meaning of friends? Making friends in secondary life is much much much much more difficulty than in primary life. In primary life, there is no argument that lasted for a year or so. In addition, when we were small in primary school, there are lots of things we did not know. Therefore, we won't blame each other too much when we quarrel or fight. However, in secondary life as we grow, we understand more and more things, the friends we make is not so easy anymore. For example, people of different gender when they wanna become friend, there is confirm other ppl spreading rumor like 'A' person hold a thing for 'B' person that why wanna get near he/she etc. Thus making them feel embarrassed whenever they around. I also realised when people grow older, the size of their heart become 'smaller' too. A small problem can aroused one person to hold grudge against the other, even if the mistake is on the person who is holding the grudge. Furthermore, the friend of the person who is holding grudge will also come to hate you even though you may NOT even NOE them. They become more and more self-center and think only for their own well-being. They totally neglected others' feeling! Some day, your so called friend is acting all friendly with you. The next moment, they may be talking bad about you behind your back. Or worst case, they may even backstab u just to get away from punishments or for their own benefits. All of this will result in one person losing confident with other people and thus making them make lesser friends for fear that they might get hurt again. So, what are friends really for? Who's the one causing all tis? What is the root of all tis?

2011-05-21T01:21:00.003+08:00

Thursday, 120511, 16:23
Chemistry exam, last paper 2day. Paper 1 was ok. After taking paper 1, my confident increase. I thought to myself: 'if paper 2 is somewhat similar standard, den i think i will do jux fine' But guess wat, the standard between paper 1 and 2 are world apart though both the papers were set by the same teacher-.-! As i was doing the paper, i realized tat I gt quite lots dk how to do. I started to freak out. But at tat moment i tried to guess my way through cos other than trying and guessing, the other option is handing up blank piece of work, which idw. I noe i will done badly for tis and frm tis incident, it make me knows tat though i may look like i had fully done my revision, there is still something(knowledge...?) lacking. Guess i can be thankful for realizing it now rather than during 'O' lvl? jy!
Friends frm sec life jio me go jurong west stadium play badminton tmr cos after exam, nid relax abit. I am neither looking nor not looking towards tmr. Seriously, when i abt to enter sec life, separate frm all those pri sku friends, i did thought to myself tat i don think i wanna make anymore friends(idk why, it jux a feeling). But ltr on, i sort of like sorted out my thinking: even if i don wanna make friends, i should also give other a chance.
Hahas there are still 3 more days! WOOT! XD

2011-05-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

Wednesday, 110511, 23:45
Second last paper 2day. Amath paper 1 over 80 marks. Without careless mistakes, a 70 marks is obtainable. But i noe myself jux too well. Making no careless mistake is mission impossible for me. But i will be happy as long as i can secured my A1. I striving to get A1 for both emath and amath. If so, my 'O' lvl L1R4/L1R5 can get lower point. Physic paper 1 today was quite some challenge. Idw to flunk MCQ too but, u noe me. If i can get a pass, i will be...happy? I wish more than getting a pass lah. Think it will work out as i wan it to be? Don think so. Cos since young, things tat i wish for will always hav opposite effect. E.g: things i wan i will nvr get it. Things idw, i gt lots of it-.-!) Anyway, tmr last paper alr, chemistry paper 1 and paper2. Chemistry my worst subject. But i tried my best. Things tat nid to rmb i alr rmb most of it(ard 90%). Although i was prepared only frm 2day ago, the detail etc is strong etched inside my head. If tmr NTH goes wrong, i think i will be able to do the paper. Lady luck smile at me pls tmr(: wish me gd luk!
Ok, gonna stop here and go back memorizing somemore. To make me more familiarize will all the fact! Gambatte!

2011-05-12T00:37:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 100511, 19:26
Hav emath and physic paper2 2day. Emath... 4gt it! My emath is going downhill(focus too much on amath, out of my 7 subjects. <<

2011-05-12T00:34:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 080511, 23:58
Firstly, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUM! LOVE U LOTS(: 2day didn't went for celebration cos they hav alr gone for it the last week. (It was the time when i don feel like going celebration wif family)...Whatever! Anyway, nth special happen. Can say 2day is like any other peaceful day. So...Mum happy 4ever(i will be ur best child, look forward to it) XD

2011-05-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 050511, 23:55
Amath exam 2day. Me and my nvr changing careless mistake once agn struck. I hav sososososoooo much confident, or rather certainty to achieve gd result for tis. I held high expectation for it. But now that i think of it, i am gonna hav a nice trip falling down high AND hard. I even beginning to worry if i made careless mistake for qns which i original think is fine. I rly afraid tat i did not get the kind of mark i wan. I seriously hate to lose! I don wanna get lower mark than other, at least nt for tis subject. If i did not get A1 frm amath, i think my confident for O lvl will drop drastically. So may me bless wif gd luk!

2011-05-06T22:52:00.001+08:00

Monday, 020511, 22:11
2day no sku cos in liew of labour day. Stay at home on com like 5+ hrs even though my parents are at home. So tired from using even though i did not sit in front of the com. Guess my eyes gonna spoil sooner or later(: hahas 2day a short post, don wanna waste more electricity, must spare a thought for parents. (haiz... Who ask me to be so thoughtful ^^)

2011-05-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 010511, 01:54
When? When? When?! Any1 can tell me the reason when it happened? In past, my family and i would always went for celebration like birthday, mothers day etc. However, recently i don even hav the slightest bit of joining them. In fact, i don even hav the slightest thought of celebrating wif them. It rly as i said, i am starting to drift further and further away from them. I am starting to lose myself... Or, is tat the REAL me? Can someone give suggestion on how to live my move on... For now...

2011-04-30T02:40:00.002+08:00

Friday, 290411, 23:44
Second day of the MYE. It's standard, always the language paper goes first. Ytd was Chinese so 2day was English. I was in a dilemma in choosing which compo to write cos all of them seem easy to write and at the same time, all of them seem too hard to write. Ite, i choose the topic titled: 'some of the young ppl say tat they do not owe their parents anything at all. What ur view'. I wrote it in expository method cos recently teacher have been teaching tat... I seriously nvr given a serious thought as in wat kind of compo it is(expository/argumentative etc). It is only when i overheard my classmate said my qns is argumentative, at tat time i think i wrote wrongly. However, no use crying over spilled milk. If tat rly the case den it mean tat i must work harder to close up the gap btw me and O lvl. Also, when writing the compo, lots of flashback started to appear inside my head. For examples, the way i treated my parents, their respond towards my actions and so on and so forth. It like for the whole of paper 1, the thought of my actions towards my parents kept on appearing. And somewhat inside, i felt v.guilty for the bad attitude towards them. So... Sorry mum and dad! I cant say i definitely will but i will try to change my attitude at home to be like in sku. Hope time is given to me(:

2011-04-30T02:21:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 280411, 22:35
2day is the start of the MYE. Chinese language first. It all happened so quickly. The day when i first entered sec life, meet different kinds of ppl, felt angry over ppl freaking attitude etc. All tis seem to be jux happening yesterday... Guess i rly need to take chance of every opportunity i hav. Haiz, whatever! Jux... Hope to give my best in doing my exam paper. Chiayong, JY! Keep ur promise wif her(:

2011-04-30T02:11:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 240411, 23:14
My grandmother go to my da bo house 2day in the afternoon. Guess it the place in Malaysia tat i miss instead of my grandmother. Cos 2day when my grandmother is leaving, i don not hav the slightest sadness or rather unwillingness. However, when the location change to Malaysia, i would feel kinda unhappy to come back to Singapore. Think i value places more than relative? Hahas, tat i still nid to examine more(:
Going back to school work, the teacher in my sku hav gone insane. Jux 3 days holiday. No, Friday is only half a day. So strictly speaking, it's 2 and a half day. In that short amount of time, we student have to complete ard 8-10 hmwk. Hav the teacher gone bonker? I mean that quite alot of hmwk in case they don noe. Do the teacher think we are robot? We also nid rest. In addition, my grandmother arrived in Singapore from Malaysia. It had been 6-7 years since she last came. Don u think tat i should spend more time wif her for a short period of time? All the pile of hmwk are jux stacking up and suffocating me): i pray hard O lvl faster come so that i can get tis freaking work off my back as soon as possible(:

2011-04-20T00:24:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 190411, 11:29
It has been one days since my grandmother come stay at my home after a long period of time, abt 6-7 years. Normally ppl will either felt happy if u love ur grandmother or sad if u hate ur grandmother. But Seriously, i don hav any feeling abt it. Jux wondering how long she will stay at my house before going to my da bo de hse(nt tat i cant wait for her to leave). 2days my xiao gu and her daughter come my hse to pay a visit to my grandmother. I rly hate tat feeling of my action being restricted. I cant rly be myself when eating dinner when i nt wif my small family. It jux so bu zi zai.... Hope can faster get over it): 家家有本难念的经。how true it is. Outsider rly hav nth to do abt it. Humans are all born acters and actresses. When my grandmother hav nt yet arrived, i hav quarrel wif my sis and bro for abt 8days and nt been talking to them since then(nt i petty. Is they don wanna talk to me... Especially my sis). But when grandmother arrived, she started talking to me like how close we are. Come on! Don wear a mask infront of others jux to maintain ur 'gd' image. Hypocrite! It makes me wanna puke! If u dare to do it then don try all mean to cover it all! At least tat i will still hav tat little respect left for u...freak!@

2day also have student leader investiture. I rmb vividly tat Xinwei tuck in her shirt(student councillors hav to tuck in) but i cant rly rmb if she is SC or nt until 2day. I somewhat felt regretful for quiting SC as she in it there to. But everytime i think of it, i will always tell myself: 'do i rly hav wat it takes to feel regret? After all it is I who CHOOSE to quit it. No one force me... I jux past by her because of my decision, who can i blame, maybe it all fated.' everytime i think it tis way, i will always be comforted. But is tat rly the answer tat i wan? Idk... Let jux say... Let nature take its courses ba(:

2011-04-12T01:58:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 120411, 01:58
tough life for me... No matter is at home or at sku, i constantly feel tat everything is against me... No matter wat i do, even if i only helping teacher, others always hav comments. I don help, teacher will comment. At home, it becoming more and more like a shelter for me... The warmth etc hav long gone. Under all tis everyday, i rly hav no idea how much longer i can hold on.

2011-04-08T01:05:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 070411, 00:00
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!
YOU ARE THE BEST!
LOVE YOU 4EVER!

2011-04-03T02:44:00.000+08:00

Friday, 010411, 04:00.
It happened agn 2day. During last lesson, Chinese, i tried to think of all sort of reasons why she had lost her smile whenever she walk past me. But, none of the reason came to my mind. I care for her attitude towards me to the extend tat i even intended to msg or face her directly for the ans for the first time? At the same time, i rly thought maybe i should jux cut off all thoughts of her and be a people who does not care abt any1 else feeling. Maybe if tat the case i won't be angry whatsoever against others' action. I sincerely wish tat was the case. However, tat nt it. Because after sku, which is after tat lesson, she talk to me... I don think i will ever 4gt tat conversation wif her. And i HATE IT. I feel tat it will be btr if she did nt even talk to me...
She: chiayong. *pass me a paper*
Me: huh?
She: my friend wrote tis. U gt it or not?
Me: ...
She: *pointed out to the words and said it*
(The whole sentence is: I 'heart shape' chiayong.)
I don believe tat cos if her friend the one wrote it why she the one who gave me? In addition, 2day is April fool. but before i can respond, she followed up wif 'April fool'. Obviously i gt angry. My immediate respond is crush tat piece of paper and threw it away. Cos it hard to accept the fact tat u heard those stuff from the one u love. But now tat i think of it, i feel tat i am the worst. Do i rly hav the right to be angry wif her? I mean, she did not even noe abt my feeling, wat fault is she at...?

2011-04-03T02:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 300311, 14:36
April fool is coming. I rmb having tis weird dream. It totally weird! The scenario is like tis: out of nowhere, me and the one i love is at outside the classroom facing each other. It is recess time i think cos it still early and no one else was there. There was a short moment of silence before she shocked me with her 3 words- i love u. I was so glad and just as i was abt to say 'me too', she said April fool...it　IS weird! Why the ending is like tis? Why can't it be more happy kind hahas(:

2011-03-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

Friday, 250311, 17:57
2day PE, teacher told us to choice the game tat we wan to play over the nxt few wks. The games are as such: basketball, volleyball, netball and last but nt least, frisbee. I was like-.- how choose sia! Cos i hav no interest in all tis. Unlike last term, we hav at least badminton. Ok, back to current. As i was mentioning abt the games, ite i choose volleyball and frisbee. Don ask me y i choose tis cos i myself also don noe.... Nvm, tis nt important. The thing is tat after choosing, we hav some time remaining. 15 mins or so. So we go to open field and one of my classmate suggested playing the 'tag catching'. I was the catcher and while chasing the other, i turn too fast, cosing me to sprained my ankle. 'ouch' tat hurt. The effect is nt immediate. It is only during recess, when i go touch it gently, i realise how painful it is. I endure it for v.long till abt 7pm when my father have eaten dinner and brought me go see doctor. The doctor use a machine to vibrate on the part of my leg tat is injured. After tat, he applied some 'oil' and rub my leg. IT SO... ITCHY! I wanna burst out laughing but i held back cos i noe tat if i laugh, i won't be able to stop myself... Ite, my leg was wrapped and was advised to let it stay there for 2 days. Sad case ar for me...

FREAK U LAH! go eat shit for all i care! Keep showing me attitude. If killing can get away in tis world, i bet u will be the first nia. 2day is earth hour so first period off lights and fans but a stupid freaking idiotic jerk go on it. As the chairman of the class, and as well as a person who is living on the earth, i do my part by walking to the front and off it. Wat was hilarious was tat he go on it agn. And thus, we begin 'playing' the switches by turning it on and off repeatedly. But after a LONG while, he moved off. I was so pissed off by him. Nt only his attitude. If he gonna walked off ite, den don bother 'playing' on off wif me!!! Don't he noe tat it will spoil the switches faster if he does tat? Pls lah. He stupid or wat? Don't he hav a brain or is inside his brain only filled wif coconut juice? Stop thinking tat u are always right cos if u can think tat, others can too. Den are u trying to tell me tat there are no wrong in tis sekai? Sec 4, 16 years old, so immature. It such a disgrace to the society!

2011-03-27T11:45:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 240311, 22:35
stop doing it or do it? I seriously don noe.... Sometime, i hope to hav ur concern, to share things wif u. But at other time, i hope tat u are nt there for me... Cos ur slightest concern will also led me to a misunderstanding. Unless i can figure out wat my feeling is, i will nvr get out of this...

2011-03-27T11:43:00.001+08:00

Wednesday, 230311, 23:07
wat are u trying to get at? U noe everytime when i angry i will be too emotional about stuff and do thing on rush. U noe tat and yet u purposely do tat... Jux wat do u wan? Ite, using nt to teach me do homework to end the conversation. Do u noe tat u are v.despicable? U noe tat i will ask u abt homework qns and yet u resort to not to teach me as an excuse to prove u are in the right. I admit i am in the wrong too. But tat only partially! Wat u doing now is push all the blame to me... Further, u even mention tat whatever between us is none of the other party problem. Do u rly hav to be so mean?! I hate u!

2011-03-27T11:41:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 200311, 20:28
i noe i should nt be thinking tis way but i jux could not control. Life seem so tough. Sometime i jux wish i be btr off gone den i can be relieve of all tis frustrating stuff etc. It jux getting on my nerves.

2011-03-27T11:39:00.001+08:00

Saturday, 190311, 18:39
2day went to scape. For wat? To watch theng theng the Chinese dance performance cos she invited me and i alr promised her and at the same time, i gt nth to do. But whenever i went out, nth seem to go right. At first, i waited for tat stupid 240 bus to arrive to go jp take mrt to somerset there but i can't believe i hav to wait for 30+ minutes for it to arrived-.- when reached city hall, i walk the wrong place to take the mrt to somerset mrt so have to go back agn. Andand, when reached somerset, there is a heavy downfall! Waited for another 10-15 minutes like tis for rain to become smaller. Den hav to find my own way there... After a while, i like FINALLY arrived. The timing is abt 2pm alr lol! I quickly find the warehouse at scape. Luckily her grp is the last to perform so i was still in time. I don noe how to appreciate the dance but since it is done by my friend, i believe it is an awesome dance(: jy theng theng XD

2011-03-27T11:35:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 170311, 22:12
Didn't i tell you before? Why you just won't listen? Didn't i say don't get close to her, don't talk to her, why you just won't listen? Now look at the mess you created. How am i going to go about cleaning it up? Do u noe tat it is becoming a bother to me? And there the teacher, cca thingy. What with all of you? It just like you all are magnet. Always create that small chances for me just whenever we are drifting far apart. How i so freaking hate it. It make me wanna say it on impulse. Please bear in mind that those are the forbidden words and if you ever want to have her smile, don't ever think about saying it out.

2011-03-27T11:34:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 170311, 22:12
Didn't i tell you before? Why you just won't listen? Didn't i say don't get close to her, don't talk to her, why you just won't listen? Now look at the mess you created. How am i going to go about cleaning it up? Do u noe tat it is becoming a bother to me? And there the teacher, cca thingy. What with all of you? It just like you all are magnet. Always create that small chances for me just whenever we are drifting far apart. How i so freaking hate it. It make me wanna say 'i love you' on impulse. Please bear in mind that those are the forbidden words and if you ever want to have her smile, don't not ever think about saying it out.

2011-03-27T11:28:00.001+08:00

Wednesday, 160311, 16:32
I actually waited in school for hours just for her. When asked why have i been staying back, I just used doing amath work to pass time as an excuse to avoid letting other know about. Is there really a need to hide it. Or rather, what am i hiding from others? Heaven sure like to make fun of people. 2day, I decided to go home at 15 00 but cats and dogs suddenly fell from the sky. I was kinda relieved? It continues all the way till abt 17 00. That when i thought since it is about only one hour left, i might as well wait somemore since i had already waited 4 hours plus. But after awhile, the school make an announcement saying that school will be close in 15 minutes time. I thought 'maybe only cca student allow to stay.' That when i pack up my things and go off. I really don't know where can i wait or find other excuses to wait... But after reaching home, i told myself: would thing between me and her be different if i waited for her at the bus-stop where she will be going home?
Hontoni Wakananai... ...

2011-03-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 150311, 22:02
Tired ttm 2day, hav chess competition, reach sku like abt 07:30 cos the consent form said so. but when reached, only saw our sku ppl. i was like -.-! The consent form said tat time is to go help out only lurh. After tat go foyer wait ppl come to make tat stupid attendance etc. The match 09:00 den start! Wat the freak! Overall gt 7 matches(morning 3, afternoon after break 4). During the sixth match, tat the longest of all of the others. Me and my oppenent was the last pair left nia. Each player is allow a time limit of 30 mins and i left wif only 13SEC sia. wat a close call. Guess wat? I won. But i jux cant get over the feeling of my opponent looking down on me. I mean, he noe he can block it, he maybe see the match is endless so decided to let me win it. Wat wif tat attitude sia. Did i say i want to win? Why nt play fairly and wait for the remaining time to pass? Is tat the spirit a player display? It is so insulting to me cos strictly speaking, if he waited for another 13sec, the winner will nt be me. When arrived at the last match, tat the worst ever. I rest less than 3mins frm the previous match, unlike the other matches where i get to rest for at least 20 mins or so. When game started, i cant believe i make lots of grave error. I keep giving my pieces for my opponent to *eat*. I totally screwed up the entire game and of cos, i lost): After tat is packed up, prize giving, pack up and return home. den bath den eat dinner den do hmwk den slp(:

After the second match, which is abt 10:30, i go back to class cos the Chinese ppl are having mock exam after ytd Chinese intensive lesson and are having break then. i also don noe why i went back. Maybe is cos she is there, jux wan to see her? i seriously hav no idea... I left in 5mins time cos the teacher arrived and exam gonna start soon and i estimated the time for the paper to end and is at abt 12:15. i go back and finished my third match v.early so go for early lunch. Am i expecting something or wat, cos i felt tat the time is passing v.slowly. After the exam she was like finally going to hall, am i happy? we did not really engage in conversation. Most of the words are "hi", "bye". some jux slide pass each other without saying anything, even thought i want to say something. ANYTHING! When she calls jiancheng, a student frm my class to go over to her there, i did nt feel anything. BUT, when she calls yu quan, a student frm her class, I CANT HELP BUT WANTING TO NOE WAT IS THEIR CONVERSATION ABT!!! And when prize giving is over etc, she bid farewell to teacher before going off. At tat moment, i gt the urge to ask her to stay and wait for me or go off together wif her. However, i cant, i hav to clear up the remaining rubbish first(tis sounded more like an excuse...). By the time i hav done~d all tat, she hav long gone frm the bus-stop. Did i felt disappointed? Still no ans... But one thing i wanna noe: WAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME?!

2011-03-05T01:14:00.001+08:00

Friday, 040311, 16:12
Why u wan to talk to me? Why u wan to try out tat stupidity test wif me? We are like a stranger for one moment and the nxt moment we are not. Jux how long do u intend to remain inside me? As far as i can rmb, no female had ever held my hand before except when i am young and insensible. In other word, u are the first to do tat since the day i grown up... BUT! Why now... Of all time? Jux when i decided to let go and ignore, why u did tat? I am v.easy to misunderstood things. Ur action will confuse me abt how i feel towards u. Can u faster make a decision or at least let me make the decision? So when i see in, i wont have the uncertain feeling inside me. It v.frustrating and disturbing!

2011-03-03T17:13:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 030311, 17:11
i jux noe it. i jux noe something like tis will happened. i should hav rejected to be the chairman. i should not hav feel bad abt after rejecting my class mentor, how i gonna face him during lesson. now the discipline master wan the chairman to prevent any food and drinks to the classroom. how i gonna do it? i mean one side is the teacher, the discipline master, the other side is my classmates, my friends. if i reported them, i noe their first reaction is frustrated because most human are selfish. they only think abt themselves and will not be able to understand my doings. but if i not gonna report, den the discipline master will put all blame on me cos my classmates will definitely gone over the board. I AM AT A TOTAL LOSS! do i rly hav to be follow the "laws" or play the role of a gd guy and pretend nth happened? AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

2011-02-23T16:40:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 230211, 16:38
zzz... first thing in the morning: on the way to sku den tio bird shit!!! WAT THE FREAK! first times nia. so unlucky. don let me catch tat bird. if not i gonna roast it. muahahha(:
stupid guy in guy.... who him sia? or rather wat is him sia? who giv him the right to say anything abt me? did he think tat he is some kind of perfect human being on world? pls lurh, no one is perfect. wat u to judge abt other? the sight of you only ruin my days. be more mature. stop going ard doing childish things wif ur childish behavior. it jux make ppl wanna puke. FREAKO!

2011-02-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

Tuesday, 220211, 19:35
nvr trust a person too much. or else you will rely too much on he/she and doubt other people ans even though theor ans is correct too. it all my fault. why shld i even depend on him so much. everything will come to an end. nth is everlasting. i shld hav noe it earlier.

2011-02-19T18:52:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 190211, 18:49

time flies... is it 2yrs since i gone. cant rly rmb. but one thing for sure, i alr starting to feel damn pissed off. think i die also no one care... rly feel like dying. at least i wont be facing the prob like now. though i noe tat i am running away frm the prob. but wat can i do? i tried. but it doesn't work out. i ask myself umpteen time b4. do i giv my best or do i giv up. but now i noe the ans. i hav given up after giving my best... things does not rly go the way i wanted. we can be laughing, eating together one moment. but the nxt moment, i cant wait for u to die. even though we are real brother, but to me, u jux like any other normal friends i hav tat i can live without. ur presence to me depend only on whether i gt any prob in my school works. the rest, strictly speaking, u are nth to me. i often so jealous of how close other younger and older brother can be. be it real life or show. i often dream of us being like tat. at least tat make me feel like we are family. but reality is harsh. i noe it impossible. for the pass few months, or rather for the past few years, i frequently think tat i shouldn't hav been born. maybe a family of four is btr than a family of five. maybe i shouldn't jux hav disappear. and maybe, life for u guys still go on... ... ... ...